“It’s not about time, it’s about choices. How are you spending your choices?” (Beverly Adamo) I was told to try this 5 minute journaling app and thought it would be a great way to help me focus on what is needed. I wont be posting theses all the time but thought it was a greatContinue reading “5 minute thoughts *1”
Tag Archives: grief
Stepping stones to my normal?
“We all carry these things inside that no one else can see. They hold us down like anchors. They drown us out at sea. I look up to the sky, there may be nothing there to see. But if I don’t believe in him, why would he believe in me?” (bring me the horizan) ThisContinue reading “Stepping stones to my normal?”
our tattoos for our babies
What if…….
With this letter to Amelia that I have been tasked to write, I keep going back to the what ifs. Whats the hardest thing about losing your baby is not having anything to hold on to. When you lose a friend or family member theres memories you can hold to. But with a baby itsContinue reading “What if…….”
50 days of walking
1st Heavenly Halloween
I had imagined today to be so different than what it is. For one I would be smiling with your face looking up into mine. We would be getting reading early with all the spooky fun. You may have only been 6 months but we would of made the most of today. You would beContinue reading “1st Heavenly Halloween”
Step at a time….
‘Please dont compare yourself to others. Your grief is your own. Every journey is unique…… just like every baby. Be gentle with yourself.’ I have been kicking myself trying to make myself feel normal again. Then realising what is normal anymore. My therapist today explained to me that I am doing really well for myselfContinue reading “Step at a time….”
Amelias Story
This is going to be hard for me to go back and remember it all as its still so fresh but I know I need to come to terms with my emotions and with what has happened. I found out I was pregnant with Amelia on my 27th birthday. I had lost my first babyContinue reading “Amelias Story”
Forever with me
On thursday this week I finally got to have my tattoo done for my Amelia. I wanted something to forever remind me of her and the mark she created in my life. So I decided to get her actual footprint with her name and date she was born. I am not good with needles soContinue reading “Forever with me”
Getting pregnant the first time.
We started to try to have a baby back in 2018, nothing was happening but we just thought it was just bad timing on our part. Autumn 2019 I had a really bad period that lasted a whole month. I was put on tablets to control the flow because I couldn’t leave the house becauseContinue reading “Getting pregnant the first time.”
My Journey 