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5 minute thoughts *1

“It’s not about time, it’s about choices. How are you spending your choices?” (Beverly Adamo) I was told to try this 5 minute journaling app and thought it would be a great way to help me focus on what is needed. I wont be posting theses all the time but thought it was a greatContinue reading “5 minute thoughts *1”

Stepping stones to my normal?

“We all carry these things inside that no one else can see. They hold us down like anchors. They drown us out at sea. I look up to the sky, there may be nothing there to see. But if I don’t believe in him, why would he believe in me?” (bring me the horizan) ThisContinue reading “Stepping stones to my normal?”

our tattoos for our babies

What if…….

With this letter to Amelia that I have been tasked to write, I keep going back to the what ifs. Whats the hardest thing about losing your baby is not having anything to hold on to. When you lose a friend or family member theres memories you can hold to. But with a baby itsContinue reading “What if…….”

Day 52 on my step challenge

50 days of walking

1st Heavenly Halloween

I had imagined today to be so different than what it is. For one I would be smiling with your face looking up into mine. We would be getting reading early with all the spooky fun. You may have only been 6 months but we would of made the most of today. You would beContinue reading “1st Heavenly Halloween”

Step at a time….

‘Please dont compare yourself to others. Your grief is your own. Every journey is unique…… just like every baby. Be gentle with yourself.’ I have been kicking myself trying to make myself feel normal again. Then realising what is normal anymore. My therapist today explained to me that I am doing really well for myselfContinue reading “Step at a time….”

Amelias Story

This is going to be hard for me to go back and remember it all as its still so fresh but I know I need to come to terms with my emotions and with what has happened. I found out I was pregnant with Amelia on my 27th birthday. I had lost my first babyContinue reading “Amelias Story”