I had imagined today to be so different than what it is. For one I would be smiling with your face looking up into mine. We would be getting reading early with all the spooky fun. You may have only been 6 months but we would of made the most of today. You would be dressed up in a cute little halloween outfit. Dont worry I would be all dressed up just to create those memories. We would go into town and visit your auntie in work and cheer her up with your smiling face.
Once we got home we would watch spooky films and light a candle for samhain to honour all those that have passed. I never thought I would be lighting this candle with you in mind. I never could imagine life without you. It just never accured to me that it could of happened. My beautiful angels how can I ever imagine this would be my life. Amelia you were meant to be my rainbow, my ray of sunshine. How could you be taken away from me in the way you were.
Todays like today I wonder the what ifs. I wonder how my life would be with you here. For one I would be soo happy. Sometimes I wonder if it would be easier to just give up and join you both up there. Then I remember thats not what you would of wanted. I also made a promise to you Amelia that I would give you more siblings and that they will know who you were. You will never be forgotten my angel babies.
My Journey 