‘Please dont compare yourself to others. Your grief is your own. Every journey is unique…… just like every baby. Be gentle with yourself.’
I have been kicking myself trying to make myself feel normal again. Then realising what is normal anymore. My therapist today explained to me that I am doing really well for myself and that I am still grieving. Its only been 6 months since losing my daughter.
She wanted me to write a letter to my daughter. Focusing on what life would of been like if she was still here. I am trying to get my head around it to be honest because thinking about that just breaks my heart. I know why she asked me to do this letter, she wants me to grieve what I lost.
I lost the chance to make memories with Amelia. I lost the chance to laugh about stinky nappies and cry about long nights with little sleep. I lost the chance to see my daughters eyes open, to see what colour they would be. I wish I could of heard her laugh and to see her smile.
I just don’t know how to write that in a letter to her. This week I want to try at least. It may help me come to terms with where I am now and what I lost. I will let you all know how I get on with this challenge and if it helped me too.
My Journey 